My head is throbbing.....

So I am "happily" married to my husband...and i say that in quotes because its, well sometimes. Talk about stressful life. We're broke, i'm pregnate and having to deal with a husband and two puppies all the time! For a while I was dealing with these two little devils constantly chewing on my stuff, peeing and pooing everywhere, and not even listening to me when i try talking to them! I couldn't take it anymore, and finally the day came where my dog bit me while he was in heat... I could have killed him! All my husband could say is that it was my fault, not evening thinking about the future of having this dog. What if he bit our baby?? Anyways arguments started when i told my husband i was getting rid of him. Long story short on that, he was so depressed we made some comprimises so the dog would stay. I always try and find ways to save money, like cutting our cell phones, or t.v or internet...something! We spend more than we make combined in a month... It's rediculous the debt we're in right now. He buys brand new hockey equipment knowing we're broke and tries to make a profit by selling his old stuff, but that doesn't work out so well. Again, another pot hole for us...

And now lately, It's been so stressful, I don't feel like he cares when i'm upset, and that it's just the hormones. It's tiring constantly thinking and holding stuff in because i have NO ONE to talk to. That's why i turned to blogging, at least getting my thoughts out is better than keeping anything in at this point. You know when your partner does things deliberately just to annoy you even when you asked them to stop, whether its because you had a headach or something else? Yeah that's my husband, except he continues to do it. He's lost most of his caring side to him, now its "what can i do to be funny...." but its not!

And for the sex part, he refused to go down on me saying its not his thing...meanwhile when he was a teenager, he had his tounge peirced....i wonder why? I'm the type of women who will do anything to satisfy her man. His version of 4play, is to get me to orgasm before sex and so when im on him or he's on me, it's quick and fast. Don't get me wrong my husbands in greattttt shape, nicely cut and everything, but I don't understand were he learned to have sex? It's quiet annoying I don't know what to do? Sometimes there's no passion and the sex is to just get it over and done with to shut me up.....because i'm the constant horny one in this relationship. What is wrong with me??....Help?!